Family

[malibunny]

Last night our aunt called and didn't mention anything about Christmas, she just called to tell us that our grandmother has beginning stages of dementia. We sort of already knew that, though, but she just confirmed it. Last time she called us was on our birthday to talk about our dad dying (even though it was 2 years ago), I don't know why she called on special occasions to talk about that stuff, but it feels appropriate since our family has (idk how to explain it but) some kind of curse/magic that's hard to explain but yeah.

We'd been thinking about family resemblances a lot recently, and where we fit in our dad's side of the family. I know this sounds so dramatic and probably pretentious, but that's how we feel, and we wanted to put it somewhere. We're wondering some things about how our dad died that we'll probably never find out. it might have been on purpose, and if it was we wish we knew why, we wouldn't mind if it was, we wouldn't be angry or anything, people kept telling us after he died that it was ok to feel angry at him but i think they were talking more about themselves because we never felt angry about it, it just makes sense within the wider sense of our family.

We're just processing stuff and I just wish we had more ways to figure this out (figure out the magic, not about our dad). Thanks for reading if you did! I'm sorry it was a downer :(

- Misty

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[thishouse]

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